Coordinated Chaos

This year has been one for the books!

This momma finally put on her big girl underwear, and applied for the surgical technologist program.

I have been putting it off for so long, it was almost embarrassing to contact the many, many colleges I’ve attended for transcripts.

But, I did it and made it into the 1 of 18 seats for the program.

Before applying, I kept doubting myself and making excuses how I did not think it was possible, how I was going to find childcare for my youngest, and how it would be financially possible.

If it wasn’t for my husband pushing me to apply and assuring me we could make it all work, I would have put off another year.

Now one semester down, I start clinicals in September.

I am excited for the hands on part of the program to start and learning through great instructors and healthcare professionals.

Back at home, my kids have survived, we have still stayed on track with bills and the extra finance of going to school, I have found childcare and actually built a great friendship through that (not only for myself, but my kids with her kids too!) and life has just done its thing.

Sure dinners have consisted of a little more take out than normal, clothes have gone longer without being washed, and there have even been days where I have had to shorten play time in order to get enough study time... but like I said, life continued to truck on.

Sometimes we spend more time making excuses for something we are afraid to start because it's new, scary and unknown.

Change is very scary for families settled and comfortable in the ways of life as it stands.

You are afraid to try and fail. Afraid to fail in other aspects of life, when you dedicate your time to this new thing.

But the worst thing isn’t failing. It is not taking that chance, because you never know what could be.

I have had this dream to become a surgical technologist since I graduated high school in 2008 and first started attending community college for my basics in 2009.

I spent 10 years making excuses and putting it off for different reasons.

I am so proud of myself for finally taking the plunge and working towards my career dream.

I encourage you to take that plunge as well, for whatever it is that you have been putting off for days, months or even years!